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100 days without sugar: 94 to go…

New readers start here; Our heroine had successfully lost over 60 lbs, but has slowly gained back a stone. Shocked at the shocking state of her, she resolves to do without sugar for 100 days.

And that you all should hear about it, you lucky people.

Now read on…

Swam as usual this morning. Managed a paltry pace, but did bring in the last 50 metres at 48 seconds. My fastest is 40 seconds, so I’m way behind there. I wonder what on earth I must look like to the rest of them in there; some sort of flipper-clapping seal or walrus shaped creature that really should know better. Imagine the conversation at the poolside;

“That was a great session! How did you do, Walrus Claire?”

“Arrgh Arrgh Arrgh!”

“Siouper Siesson Siays I!” (I’m holding in my stomach in this one.)

I was sorry to learn that Darragh McDonald (@Darragh_McD on Twitter) won’t be taking part in the European Championships due to a hernia. Hope he is feeling better soon. His sessions in the pool are two hours each, twice a day, so I have very little to complain about. 

And managed to successfully avoid the biscuits after dinner again, which is my danger time. It is not much, admittedly, but it is something and I’m claiming it.

100 days without sugar – 95 days to go

New readers start here; Our heroine had successfully lost over 60 lbs, but has slowly gained back a stone. Shocked at the shocking state of her, she resolves to do without sugar for 100 days. And that you all should hear about it, you lucky people. Now read on…

There is a real need that sugar serves. It can become such a comfort before you even know it. I find myself mentally leaning on it without my even realising it. Yesterday we took the little man to the beach and then on to his grandparents, a long day that ended long after ten pm.  Today he woke me at 6am and my brain refused to go back to sleep. He dropped off for a nap at about 10.30 am, but I am strung out and stretched thin with tiredness. I find myself constantly telling myself that never mind, I now deserve buns/chocolate/comfort food. It seems for me, sugar is a substitute for developing some bloody character.  It means that without my crutch, I can feel my self esteem drop; my usual method of showing myself approval is gone from me, so what good am I?

Exhausted, flabby, no make, *perfect* time for a photo...

Exhausted, flabby, no make, *perfect* time for a photo…

The biggest hurdle in all of this is, as always, learning to live this way…

Wednesday Write In #90

The prompts are; jungle  ::  matchbox  ::  sparrow  ::  hog  ::  mull

The matchbox room was a comedown after the jungle. She stood next to her luggage and stared at the tiny room.

“It is a bit small, I grant you,” said the cockney landlord behind her, “but I think you’ll find it will grow on you.”

Like mildew, she thought. “It’s fine, thank you. I hope you received the deposit on time?” She turned to look at his hog-like face, that managed to glisten with sweat in the cold room.

“I did, indeed. I trust that the rent will be forthcoming shortly?”

“Yes, on the fifth, as arranged.”

“Excellent. Then I will leave you to your new abode,” he said, giving one last greasy smile, and then finally shutting the door behind him.

She sighed as she looked around her. The room was big enough for a sparrow, really, nothing more. Her large trunks looked ridiculous bundled up against the wall, but she she had no idea things would be like this.  It had seemed the norm when she had taken the steamer back to London. She would have to prioritise what to unpack, use only what she needed. She dreaded what the bathroom must be like. None of that mattered, anyway.

She sat down on the bed and mulled it over. He had been gone since January, that was four months now. She had no intention of letting him remove himself from her life without explanation, without some idea of what was going on. That was unacceptable. She was going to find out what had happened to him. And then she was going to go home, back to her old life and her own country.

Home. She thought with misery of the starlings and birds that fluttered on the veranda at home, the heat and the light so breathtaking and familiar at the same time. She wanted to go back there so much. But first she had a job to do. Find him. And then go home. Even if it was over his dead body.